Fun Things to Think About Before Bed

It's past midnight and I really should be getting my beauty sleep in preparation for my favorite time of the week - Monday morning, of course - but no. Instead I'm being my usual weirdo self and am lying here thinking up horrible scenarios that could happen at any given moment. I won't talk about my specific morbid thoughts or fears, though - too disturbing. I will say that many of my fears revolve around my kids nowadays and, to me, this is the worst thing about parenthood. 

It's amazing the amount of love you have for your kids. I never ever could imagine the depth of love a parent has until I had children of my own; people talk about it, but you just can't fathom it until it's yours. I mean, all I have to do is look at my kids and my heart skips a beat. Yeah, this love is great and all that, but you know what comes with love - insane amounts of WORRY. And here it is, keeping me up, reminding me of all I could lose if *gulp* something were to happen to either of them. Or BOTH of them! Oh you think NO WAY could something that horrible happen to someone but then you read an article about a woman losing all three of her children thanks to the driver of the car going the wrong way down the highway. Like really - how do such bad things happen? How do you survive that kind of grief? 

Sometimes I think I love my kids too much. Maybe I'm obssessed? Or do all parents go through this agony of worrying? Is there a way to outlet these anxieties, or am I just going to have to bubblewrap my children? Thoughts would be great. I feel like I'm going a little nutty!

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Asher & His Lesson

I am sitting outside the room where Asher is having his piano/violin lesson. He doesn't seem to mind anything that Mr. Sabatino instructs him to do. It's so frustrating to see him, more or less, ignore what he's told to do. I just would like to go in there and grab him by the arm and tell him to pay attention.

But actually, he is paying attention. He is picking up on the things that are told and shown to him. He knows all the parts of the violin, how to hold the bow, and the correct way to bow the bow across the strings. And now he knows where middle C is and two songs. His lack of paying attention during practice and his lessons was/is so frustrating. But I just need to "sack up" and be more patient. He's obviously picking up on something.

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